Day 14 - Someone You've Drifted Away From

"People come into your life for a Reason, a Season, a Lifetime." (UnKnown)

Well Hello Stranger, 

 

I consider you my Lifetime friend, while I'm your Reason. I've always been there to assist you through difficult periods in your life. I've come to provide that guidance and support that you need when you are going through a crisis. Once the storm passes you often fade into anonymity.  I realize that at this moment and time your need has been met, your desire fulfilled, and my work is done. I've always hoped that you were in it for the long haul. I've come to accept you for what you are, and I don't prematurely judge you. I look forward to the next storm my dear friend. 

 

 

Affectionately yours,

 

Beautifully Flawed

 

 

 

Day 13- Someone You Wish Could Forgive You

I apologize (Oh honest and true.). Because I know I was wrong and so I sing you this song. And I'm tryna get through to make it up to you yeah. (Anita Baker)

I hope and pray that there is nobody out there that is holding a grudge against me.

I would love for the following parties to look deep in their hearts and please forgive. 

This letter goes out to:

• All the individuals who I was late meeting for Happy Hour, dinners, movies, etc. It showed poor home training and lack of respect for your time. I apologize. Resolution: I will now call to properly inform you that I will be 15 minutes late.
• Best pals who've called with boyfriend drama and I let your call go straight to voicemail. Lord knows I've bent your ear perhaps a time or two and I should really be there in your time of need. Resolution: Even though we discussed your situation that day for 8 hours straight on instant messenger, I will pick up the phone and I will deliver my lines on cue: "He is so going to regret breaking up with you", "His new girlfriend is such a cow"
• Random people I might have misconstrued the truth to. Be it the one whale of a tale or a little white lie I apologize for not being upfront and honest. Resolution: Plead the fifth from here on out. 
• The slow walking folks. I would like to apologize to the people I have sped walked passed to make sure I was the next person in line. My brisk walk past you stirring up dust is uncalled for.  Resolution: I will try and contain the competitive beast within and appreciate being a lollygagger.
• All persons I've encountered in my life that I might have offended in some shape in form on purpose or unknowingly. Resolution: Pray that you get a sense of humor. (I kid, I kid)

Affectionately yours,

 

Beautifully Flawed

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

“If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us” (Herman Hessee)

Hate: : intense hostility and aversion usually deriving from fear, anger, or sense of injury : to feel extreme enmity toward (Merriam-Webster)

 After looking up the word Hate I had some trouble with this entry.  Like most individuals I've used the word hate often but never knew how heavy duty of a word it was. It was difficult to select someone as a candidate seeing that I've never felt that much intense hostility towards another person before. Yes, people have caused me heartache and hurt but I've never Hated them.  If I had to write this letter to someone to fulfill this challenge, I would choose myself. There was a moment in time when I was disturbed by my actions, my sense of fear, and anger.  I was injured and refused to be repaired. No one would of guessed the feelings I had brewing inside. I was a wounded by emotional vampires.  Familiar situations paralyzed me. I allowed myself to become the dumping ground for negative energy. The stranger peering at me in the mirror caused my blood to boil.  Thankfully I was able to recover from these feelings of self loathing. I constantly strive never to visit that dark place again. 

Affectionately yours,

 

Beautifully Flawed

Hi Ho Hi Ho It's Off To Work We Go

“The best way to appreciate your job is to imagine yourself without one.” (Oscar Wilde)

I had a terrific extended weekend! I laughed, ate, cried, reconnected with old friends, and made some new ones. Of course I wish it was longer but all good things must come to an end. There is a small part of me looking forward to going into work tomorrow.  

Affectionately yours,

 

Beautifully Flawed

President’s Day

Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek. (President Barack Obama)

In honor of President's Day, I decided to compile a list of my favorite quotes from some Presidents.

• It is amazing what you can accomplish if you do not care who gets the credit. -Harry S. Truman
• I am rather inclined to silence, and whether that be wise or not, it is at least more unusual nowadays to find a man who can hold his tongue than to find one who cannot. -Abraham Lincoln
• We should live our lives as though Christ were coming this afternoon. -Jimmy Carter  
• Honesty is the first chapter of the book of wisdom. -Thomas Jefferson

 

Affectionately yours,

 

Beautifully Flawed

 

It's Cookie Time

“Think what a better world it would be if we all, the whole world, had cookies and milk about three o'clock every afternoon and then lay down on our blankets for a nap.” (Robert Fulghum)

What can make this long weekend even better? Girl Scout Cookies! Yes the gang's all here. Thin Mints, Samoas, Tagalongs, Do-Si-Dos, Trefoils, Lemon Chalet Cremes, Dulce de Leche and Thank U Berry Munch! I do not believe that there is any cookie on the face of the earth that can compete with a Thin Mint!

 If taste alone is not enough reason to go out and support girls who are involved in a wholesome endeavor here are a few other reasons you should pick up a box or two:

 

• All Girl Scout cookies are "zero trans fat per serving" with the same great taste that has made them one of America's favorite treats over the years.
• Support an organization that appears to be scandal free. 
• Support girls who are taking part in age appropriate activities.

 

 

 

Troop Beverly Hills (1989)

Affectionately yours,

Beautifully Flawed

Day 11 - A Deceased Person You Wish You Could Talk to

“If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever.” (The Crow)

Dear Grandpa,



Can I please get a moment of your time? I know you are resting peacefully and I hate to disturb you, but there's so much on my heart.  Lately I've been curious about your life. Wondering if you had any regrets?  Is there some words of wisdom that you would love to pass along to your kids and their children? I wish I had a moment to sit with you and share stories about what my mother was like as a child? Was she honestly a shy grade A student and athlete? Grandpa, did you know one of my favorite memories was the time we went hunting together? I know it was something that you enjoyed doing and I felt honored that you allowed me to join you. I have many memories of you being tough and stern, but I can also recall your laugh. The way you would tilt your head back and just let it out. For some odd reason the image of you laughing is imprinted in my head.  Even though you chastised us I love you, because you helped mold my mother into the woman that she is today. I wish you could see her now. Gone is the little timid girl with pigtails. She's a caregiver, nurturer, sassy woman. Well I don't want to take up all of your time. Let me end this letter by saying the one thing that was never said enough:
I love you. 

Affectionately yours,

Beautifully Flawed

Day 10 - Someone You Don't Talk To As Much As You'd Like

 “Absence makes the heart grow fonder.” (American Proverb)

Dear Someone I don't talk to as much as I would like to,

Words can't express how much I miss you. It's amazing how life choices can cause a ripple effect.  The events that occurred caused our bond to grow stronger. I began to confide in you in a different way.  Gone were the days of pleastrines and talks full of fluff.  I realize that I could take off the kid gloves with you. While you were leaning on me for support, I was secretly growing roots from you. From you I learned that life is precious and short. I've stopped putting off things until tomorrow because tomorrow is not guaranteed. Whenever I feel a little Eeyore coming on I think of you and recall the words of hope that you've shared with me. You have envouraged me to chase after my dreams and don't be afraid. Your situation has caused me to reevaluate my life. I know realize that you were right about me letting fear hold me captitive from all the splendid things that life has to offer. Our communication is limited but I treasure the moments that you can share with me. I look forward to the day when we can speak on a regular basis.

Affectionately yours,

Beautifully Flawed

Day 9 - Someone You Wish You Could Meet

"Dear Slim, I wrote but you still ain't calling, I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom, I sent two letters back in autumn, you must not-a got them, There probably was a problem at the post office or something, Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot them." (Eminem)

Dear Someone I wish I could meet, 

I find it odd that I've never meet you but you were able to stumble across my blog.  Here I am forming this letter to you and you might actually be reading it. The thought makes me a little nervous and now unsure of what to write. I mean, I can't really write how great you are because we haven't met yet. What if we cross paths and I realize that you my dear are a douche bag. Also I risk the chance coming across as some sort of cyber stalker. Don't laugh. Take a moment and think about it. What if you stumbled across a letter where someone stated how badly they wanted to met you then you two just "happen" to cross paths. Coincidence or Stalking? 

Affectionately yours,

Beautifully Flawed

Happy Love Yourself Day!

     “I wanted to make it really special on Valentine's day, so I tied my boyfriend up. And for three solid hours I watched whatever I wanted on TV.” (Tracy Smith)

It's the most nauseating time of the year! Valentine's Day!! Depending on what team you play for today you could be walking around all giddy on cloud nine (pockets a little lighter) or you could be on suicide watch somewhere. I think it's time for you to take stock in that one person that you neglect the most.  "You"!  We stress out over finding the perfect Valentine's Day card for our loved ones, or making that perfect dinner so that someone else is happy. Often times we just forgot about ourselves.  We are so busy running around trying to ensure that other person has a wonderful day we forget to do a little something for ourselves. 

Take some time today and do some self-affirmations. It might sound silly but it can be extremely powerful. It might be something that you want to add to your daily arsenal.  Also take a moment and do something nice for yourself.  Don't forget that you're worth the extra trouble and you are someone you should enjoy spending quality time with. 

Happy Love Yourself Day!! 

Affectionately yours,

Beautifully Flawed

My Favorite Internet Friend

"Give a person a fish and you feed them for a day; teach that person to use the Internet and they won't bother you for weeks."  (UnKnown)

Dear Internet Friend,

I am so grateful for the Internet. A long time ago in a galaxy far away we were real life acquaintances. We use to meet up for drinks and random chit chat.  Thankfully the Internet has made our lives so much easier. It has helped us become more and more isolated in real life, while at the same time becoming more and more connected on Facebook and Twitter.  Yippie!! When you announced that you were pregnant I didn't receive a phone call, a  letter, or a visit. I received a lovely instant message that began “Guess what”?.  I really enjoyed that virtual drink that you sent me on Facebook. It was much more enjoyable than a real one, plus less calories! 

 

Affectionately yours,

Beautifully Flawed

Day 7 - My Ex

"I try to teach my heart not to want things it can't have" (Alice Walker)

Dear Ex,

You destroyed me. You broke my spirit. Somehow you found a way to push all of my buttons and turn me into a person I despise. You made me weak and insecure. I found myself doubting my value and worth just to have you around.  Sad part is you never tried to keep me and never apologized for causing me pain.  You became a prize at the big fair and I was so focused on winning you.  But in the end the others were smart by bailing ship and finding real love. While I was stuck with neglect and bitter feelings. Not sure when and how we got lost on the path of happiness. One moment we could be best friends the next sworn enemies. I love that you are so witty and clever and that you understood me. I just wish she didn't hurt you. I wish I would have met you before her. When you were willing to receive and give love. Hopefully one day both our hearts will heal. I believe in you and your potential I wish you nothing but the best.

"I've been sittin' around way too long tryin' to figure you out" (Kelly Pickler, Red High Heels)

 

Affectionately yours,

Beautifully Flawed 

Day 6 - A Stranger

"Today, give a stranger one of your smiles.  It might be the only sunshine he sees all day."(H. Jackson Brown Jr.)

Dear Stranger, 

I don't know you but we seem to meet everywhere.  Sometimes we see each other at the mall, the gym, the grocery store, or in the mirror. Sometimes your breathtaking other times your average. We might not know one another but we have shared moments together.  There are the times we see one another and smile. A few times we have shared a few compliments because we thought the other might need a little pick me up. Other times we are in our own little bubble and pass by without acknowledging one another.  There have been times when I let you check out before me because I noticed you were in a rush and only had one item. Let's not forget the time that you flicked me off in traffic and I laughed because I felt that would burn your britches. Such wonderful memories.

Affectionately yours,

Beautifully Flawed

Day 5 - My Dreams

“I have had dreams, and I have had nightmares. I overcame the nightmares because of my dreams.” (Unknown)

Dear Dreams, 

There is never a dull moment with you around. Fear had shifted my energy towards different things. Naysayers have clouded my judgement and caused us to disconnect. But a series of tragic events gave me the courage to reach back out to you. I promise to never be lost again like I once was.

Glad we had this little chat.

Affectionately Yours,

Beautifully Flawed

Day 4 — My Sibling

It was nice growing up with someone like you - someone to lean on, someone to count on... someone to tell on!  (Unknown)

Dear Siblings,

There were so many benefits growing up with you guys. It was nice always having someone around who could offer support, love, friendship, and understanding on a level that a parent or friend simply cannot. Our sibling rivalry has taught me how to manage conflict and negotiate solutions, because unlike friends I'm kind of sorta stuck with you. You both mean the world to me and I hate to see you guys in pain. We have always been a close little band of misfits, but life's little hiccups has made our bond stronger these past few years. It's hard to believe that we are now adults with our own little lives, bills, problems, and families. Even with all these things going on I love that we still make time for one another. I am proud of the individuals that you both have become.

"Sibling relationships...outlast marriages, survive the death of parents, resurface after quarrels that would sink any friendship. They flourish in a thousand incarnations of closeness and distance, warmth, loyalty and distrust." (Erica E. Goode)

 

Affectionately Yours,

Beautifully Flawed

Day 3 - My Parents

"Many parents are finding out that a pat on the back helps develop character - if given often enough, early enough, and low enough” (UnKnown)

Dear Mr and Mrs. Beautifully Flawed,

Thank you for your love, patience, sense of humor, and kind hearts.  I appreciate the support (spiritual, emotional, financial) that I have received from you over the years.  I love the relationship that you two have developed with one another over the years. It makes me smile and gives me hope that one day I will be blessed with something as special as what the two of you have.  I know that at times it might appear that your little flawed ones have strayed off from the path that you have laid out for us. But don’t fret after receiving a few bumps and bruises we always get back on track.

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Mom – Our little talks have become the highlight of my day. I love how our relationship has developed from one that was Mother/Daughter to best friends.  I don’t know a soul alive that has a bigger heart than you.  You would give the shirt off of your back if someone needed it.  Many might view you as sensitive because you are so caring but you are one strong cookie.  You might not be as flashy as your counterpart but you also leave a lasting impression on folks. You are soft spoken but when you speak your words can move mountains.  

OMG I'm just like you:  Besides being the spitting image of you, I find that I also have a soft spot for my fellow man. Whenever someone is in a bind I find myself trying to move hell and high water to assist them. 

Favorite moment:   Was a phone call with some semi bad news.  It’s one of my favorite memories because I was I was able to comfort you. You always seem to take care of others and it felt good that I was your rock.

Dad – You have such an enthusiasm for life.  While your counterpart is the party planner you are the party.  You always seem to march the beat of your own little mariachi band.  I admire your “I don’t care what these folks think of me attitude”.  I appreciate your honesty over the years. No matter the question, you have always provided me with words of wisdom and not fairytale fluff.  You should really write a book one day.  

OMG I'm just like you:  Every now and then I can hear the mariachi band playing and find myself saying “Hey everyone look at me!”. 

  Favorite moment: Our car ride home from the airport two years ago.   I enjoyed that time Daddy/Daughter time. It reminded of when I was back in high school and we would ride home from work together and chit chat. It also showed me another side of you.  I learned that even Superman has weak moments.  It was nice to know that even though I’m your little girl you viewed me as an adult. 

Affectionately yours,

Beautifully Flawed

Day 2 — My Crush

"I wonder one day could it be, simple dreams turning into reality." (LL Cool J)

Dear Crush,

 

 You know who you are. We know how we feel. But ours is a story with no happy ending. Timing has never been on our friend. Perhaps it's for the best to let sleeping dogs lie. Please know that you have inspired me to be brave and to take more risks. We will always have the memories of what could of been. See you in my dreams. (Kiss on the Cheek)

Affectionately yours,

Beautifully Flawed

Day 1 — My Best Friend

“A friend is someone who lets you have total freedom to be yourself.” (Jim Morrison)

"Just do it do it do it do it do it do it do it" (P Diddy)

Dear Best Friend, 

It always amazes me how I could be sitting around and the instant you cross my mind I get a message from you. It's like we have "ESPN" or something. (Hug) Your enthusiasm for life makes you a delight to be around.  You are so caring and always looking out for everybody else around you. You have been there for me since the moment we became friends. It may have taken me a while to open up to you, but now I can tell you anything. You know me better than anyone else. I also know I can always trust you to always be there, you've never let me down before, and I know you won't. I only hope I can always be there for you, the way that you are there for me. You aren't just my best friend, you are part of my family. I can't ever thank you enough for always putting a smile on my face. I admire the person  that you have become. Thank you for allowing me to be me. You deserve all the love and happiness that this big world has to offer. Don't let anyone or any situation discourage you. Let me end this letter now before I begin to cry.

May your days be happy and your blessings be plentiful. 

Affectionately Yours,

Beautifully Flawed